I kinda did that this week.
One of my best friends from Trinidad was supposed to be coming to the U.S. today. It's been planned for a while now. He had a ticket and everything! But he had to renew his passport for the trip. Honestly, it's crazy how this all worked out. At the same time that he applied for his passport, the government in Trinidad went on strike, so his passport could not be renewed in time. He supposed to be on the plane right now, but he's not. He was going to spend like most of the summer here, but now he's not. Everything has just fallen through.
Literally all week Iwas praying that God would somehow give Kerstan his passport. But he didn't.
All week, I clung to this verse that I was just so sure meant that God would give him his passport.. I'm sure you know the verse:
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."
-Psalm 37:4I took this to mean that God will give me whatever I want as long as I love Him.
I pleased with God for this trip. All week I had an attitude that said, "God I love you! Now, can you give him the passport? Cause this is my desire!! And you know, you did say that you would give me my heart's desires...just puttin' it out there... *hint*hint*"
Buuuut...umm, yea.
Apparently that's not how it works, folks.
Apparently this verse translates to a little something like this:
Delight yourself in the Lord sooo much so that he truly will give you the desires of your heart...BECAUSE your desires will be transformed into what God's will is and wanting whatever it may be that He has in store for you.
So this is my prayer:
God, No matter what it is. No matter how much it may hurt for a time. No matter what it may require of me - or whether I consider it to be good or bad - my heart's desire is whatever YOUR
And even though I may not like my situation, I can have joy unspeakable because I know that this is Your will. Your perfect, beautiful, wonderful, amazing will.
Thank you Jesus.
